Ms.AS

I made a stupid mistake. It turned my life so difficult to handle. All I have right now is myself. I miss those days when I can still pamper myself with my time.

It was never easy when I had my relationship with Ms.AS. She crushed my life. I have no idea that she can manipulate me with her demanding ways. I know somehow she loved me but I can assure you I loved her more. Simply by giving her everything that I can. Its unfair, like what was I thinking. I completely forgot myself. I am not blaming anyone or asking anything in return. When she told me that this relationship is a big mistake I felt nothing. I was filled with anger and hatred. I know that time I am dead physicaly wounded and mentaly abused. All the words that came out of her mouth are abusive and full of curses. I was sitting in the corner covering myself with my arms to protect my head from being hit. I felt so lifeless at that moment all I can hear is her hand slapping my face and her feet kicking me. I stood up so I can gasp some air bacause I cant hardly breath. I thought she had enough hitting me but I was wrong. She held my hair pulled it and smashed my face on the edge of the bed. I finally saw the stars I knew that i was in heaven. I don't want to open my eyes but I did. I saw her angry face and I know that she can kill me. I told her to stop because she kept hitting me. She stopped and sat on the bed. I was lying on the floor. I knew that she was just regaining her strenght. I finally had a chance to escape. I grabbed my wallet and walked out the door. I called my friends for them to help me. Finally one of them responded to my text. I went to my friends house. When I got there she was shocked because I never knew that my face is bleeding. I rode a jeepney to get to her place but I didn't notice that I was bleeding. She hugged me and told me what did she done to me. I never told her a thing I just cried and felt secured with her arms.

Now, I am finally free and still hunted by Ms.AS.

Stand still

Fired but Hired
Never give up
And I learned to shut up
Just stand up whenever you fall
By that time you'll stand tall

Time can tell how much you owe
Don't let it pass
Because you can never go back to your past

Bare in mind the things you need to keep
Don't just dream whenever your asleep
Hang on, Just give HIM a call
And everything will be just fine

Limits

Why should I give you a love so perfect if your not sensitive enough to feel my pain. You have everything and I have nothing. Is it fair? Shut up! Your personality can swallow you whole. Your pulling me down instead of helping me to get up.. You know what? Just let me go and live my life the way I wanted it to be! Your not worth it..
Reason: You crossed the line...

Work

Finally I passed my interview. It was not that hard but I am really nervous. I was like shaking and almost lost my voice. tomorrow is a big day for me. I will be having my training I just hope I won't be eliminated. I have waited for so long to have this kind of opportunity. Never in my entire life happened something like this. I know that I'm a very hard working person.

Pain of loving

Love hurts not one's not even twice. I hate it! So much hurt so much pain but it takes a while to regain. I beg and plead for a second chance but nothing happened. You must be so confident enough to do this to me. It just so happened that I love you so much and the hell I care if I look stupid in front of my friends. I may not show you how much I care but I know you can feel it somehow. You should have known me better because I'm loving you the way no one ever loved you before. You stopped caring and loving me I can feel it since the we started this relationship. Now I fell in to your curse of love so useless and worst you made me feel worthless. I just hope you'll be happy and contented this time. I can't play your game no more. You had enough of my love and care. I shared to you my life now I'm beginning to stand on where I fell. Just for a fact my brain is bigger than my boobs.